Five things I don't want my children to know about me

Hmm, Five things I don't want my children to know about me??

Ok, gosh, where to start? No, How to start.......

I could go with the obvious one, the temper, but hey I guess they will know about that one, so no point in trying to convince myself I can keep it hidden.
Though I would rather they never see the full extent that it can get to. Rows are normal but fury, I can only hope that that can remain contained.

Someone wrote about drinking. I had my time with drinking when I was a Student. I guess, in a way I am proud of those days. I didn't drink until I was 18 then I didn't really do that in my home town (too small, too many people to tell me what I did) but I think I made up for it when I was annonymous in the city. But boy do I Never want my children to know/see me in that state.

I hope they never see me as lost and floundering. As I feel I am now. I don't really know what I am or what I want to be. I hope that they have a clearer direction in their life and never really realise that I never did. What I mean is, I want to be a better role model. I am sure I will be, eventually, but I don't think I want them to think of me as a floundering soul.

hmm....?
Body image, It is important to me that they are body confident. I was very afraid of mine as I grew up. Catholic upbringing I think.
Is afraid the right word?
I don't cover up in front of them because I don't want them to be over conscious but it has taken a bit and I am still not all that happy with me. I don't want them to know that.
Does that make sense?

Last but not least. I don't want them to know that, actually, I really Hate spiders and most creepy crawlies!!
Ok this might change as they get older but right now it is something that I am trying to teach by example, but it is pretty hard to say 'oh look darling an earywig. Isn't it fascinating how many legs he has?!'
No!! Eurch!!!